This excerpt is a paragraph from my forthcoming book © “One Boy’s Struggle…”
“There were so many times through the course of writing this book that I wanted to stop and give up, and there are many experiences I write about that causes me emotional distress. While writing parts of this book, I actually found myself reliving certain events in my mind and experiencing the painful feelings I had then all over again. Some days, writing about my past was emotionally overwhelming and I wanted to quit. I would also start thinking of all the bad things that could happen to me by writing about my personal experiences, and forget why I wanted to write the book in the first place. Mostly, I felt guilty about the things that happened to me and ashamed of who I was. Guilt is the fore bringer of negativity and self-defeat. There are many things for me to feel bad about, but living with feelings of guilt and shame for most of my life has literally kept me from accomplishing or even trying to accomplish many things. The blame I placed on myself for being the way I was is depressing and exhausting. Many of my negative thoughts made me feel like Sisyphus, who was condemned to roll a huge boulder up a hill, never successfully reaching the top before the boulder would roll back down the hill, forcing him to start the exhausting task all over again. For the longest time I blamed myself for being a bad child…”
Over the course of the next few months, as we come closer to publication, I will post more paragraph excerpts from “One Boy’s Struggle…”
~Bryan
