Some days, they pass so slowly and some days, they pass so fast. When we wake, nobody knows which type of day it will be.
There can be no preconceived plans without adaptation. There can be no reality without visiting our dreamlands. There can be no pleasure without intense pain. Everything has its price and it seems to me our price is higher and higher and is too unbelievably excessive!
We know we can – we know… there’s that place… right there – inside each and every one of us. You and me. That Special Feeling inside, inside our hearts, inside our minds, inside, yes, inside our very souls. When we reach it, but… oh, it’s just out of reach and so far away, and right… right there, just right there in front of us. You can see it, you can feel it and some days, on the good ones, you can almost touch it, just almost.
Don’t give up, no, never – never ever do that! Don’t give up. And we don’t – we survive, we are survivors each and every one of us.
Yes, we are survivors… our traits, our wits, our passions and our pleasures and yes, even our challenges… those things, those things make us, we continue, we continue to go on… day after day… day after day!
There are things we can do so well, instead we go day to day, never halting our focus, our focus on survival – the fear of letting go of surviving, it’s… what we do every day.
The lock, the key, to put to rest the worries, the fears, the instinct to survive every minute, every hour and every day… to put to rest the worries, the fears, brings upon us… brings…
Brings upon us… the power, the tenacity, the passion and the knowledge to…
Perhaps, just perhaps, mind you, perhaps our grip on merely surviving day to day is the ultimate barrier, the decisive factor between fight and flight – surviving and thriving!
As adults with ADHD, we have gone through lifetimes of just making it, forgetting things and waiting for the other shoe to drop. For far too many of us, we lived through a childhood of always doing the wrong things, forgetting our homework or just not doing it and as we grew older, into the adults we are now, we never forgot those feelings, those childhood emotional fears of catastrophe striking us at any time. Sometimes the past never goes away and lives within us day to day, keeping us in a constant crouch – ready to jump at any given moment… Those same fears and those same emotions, those same feelings of not being good enough, for some of us they create a belief so powerful that nothing anyone says and no matter the proof, nothing seems to have the power to overcome those past memories which lurk within still creating havoc, even to this day… perhaps, I say again, just perhaps, that’s something to think about. When we break things down, and explain those things to ourselves, is the glass half full or half empty? It can go either way; you choose which way it goes, just like I do. I had help… sometimes that’s what we need… help. Nothing wrong with that, nothing at all, it’s a brave thing to do and it can be the right thing to do!