I’m married also and theres a million reasons why my husband of 19 years was a better choice then this guy ever was, yet that first love stuff is pretty powerful. I think part of it for me was this:

As a young teen with undiagnosed ADD, among other problems, I think it was more the timing of when I met this person then anything else. I had hit rock bottom, my only parent was dying and my future looked hopeless and I was scared of life because I sucked at it. This person, who had more problems then I did, was like a angel to me as well and when I was with him I felt normal. I wonder if it’s more the memory of the way I felt with him that I hung onto to all these years.