What do you long for?

What excites you?

Have you defined what you want, need and desire…

…in someone to love, hold and live with forevermore?

What is your innermost desire in another person – specific characteristics which stand above all others – do you know what they are? It’s important; believe me, it’s very, very important.

You will never know what you are looking for until you define it. You will never find what you are looking for until you give it a description. They say that if you don’t stand for something that you will fall for anything. It’s the same with finding a true to your heart friend and lover. If you don’t know, you may seek out nearly anyone with a nice smile, pleasant demeanor and perhaps a little flash that shows seemingly genuine interest. And, you will be had! What’s so wrong with that?

Do you sit alone in the dark wondering and dreaming?

What are you striving for?

For what do you aspire?

Who are you anyway?

Have you considered, deeply and thoughtfully, your mistakes and misfortunes?

Have you thought about how you can change?

Have you listened to the silence around you? What does it tell you?

Take a moment to take measure, to take in how much you have strived and tried and the effort you have put forth to please and be everything you could possibly be. How much have you given? Oh, how much must you give? Everyday, you set forth to sail the seas of aspirations and yet try to ignore them for the simple fear of failure, because you will fail, you will never measure up.

It’s easier alone.

So it seems.

Sometimes, the preference to be alone is so great that it is hard to break away from, it’s seductive and oh so quiet. When we are alone there is no one to judge us, no one to condemn us, moreover, there is no one to argue with.

But, alas, being alone is so lonely.

Not to know what to say, or how to say it if you did know. It’s so much better to remain in the shadow, hushed and alone. When alone, there’s no grade or compliance, there’s no role to play or correction to make. It’s easier to be alone, because, there’s no one to tell you that you are wrong, that you don’t have what it takes, that the way you live is wrong, that what you are doing is causing problems, that how you act is unacceptable.

Inside My Room

Out the window I can hear them play, the laughter, and the fun – the other kids from the neighborhood, playing, funning and laughing together. I don’t want to go outside. Trouble is out there. I want to stay here…

Inside my room.

My room is my castle, it is my spaceship, it is my universe, where I am the hero, I am the ruler – I can stay out of trouble in my room. My room is safe. I make too many mistakes. I don’t understand why I am so wrong, always wrong, always saying the wrong things. I have my room. My room is safe.

Inside my room.